1. I was born March 24th, 1998.
2. I am the oldest child of three, although I’m rarely around my siblings enough to know that I even have them.
3. My parents named me Ansley after they saw some kid on some show that was named Ansley. This kid was a boy.
4. I have a small obsession with seafood sauce and by small obsession I mean I could drink it and have it with every meal.
5. Im slightly obsessed with Spider Man and Peter Pan.
6. I absolutely can NOT sleep with socks on, they always end up kicked off anyway.
7. I have a crazy irrational fear of birds and I don’t know when it started or why it started, I just know that I ran out of a pet store crying once because there was a parrot out of its cage.
8. I always want change but I also fear change. I need to be in charge of what is going on or it stresses me out.
9. One thing I constantly want to change is my hair. My hair color, length, style. I always want it different. I always want something crazy that my parents are never okay with.
10. I get along with my dad way better than I get along with my mom. (he admits that I am his favorite)
11. I love my mom but she gets on my nerves more than anyone because she can’t realize that I’m old enough to make my own mistakes, make my own friends, and that I deserve some freedom.
12. I have the coordination of a toddler.
13. I hate holding hands with people.
14. I want to learn how to play the nyckelharpa.
15. High school has made me realize how quickly I can lose people.
16. I’ve always lived in Springfield Missouri, and I cannot wait to get out.
17. Sometimes I start to talk really quickly and jumble all of my words together, leave words out, or say the wrong words.
18. I want to get a smiley piercing. I’ve always wanted one and each time someone tells me how ugly they are, it makes me want to get one even more.
19. I plan on having lots of tattoos.
20. I wish I were brave enough to dress how I really want to.
21. My favorite color is black.
22. I hate my bedroom but spend most of my time in there, either reading, doing homework or sleeping.
23. I have an entire wall in my room covered with notes and random tickets and pictures and just random things that hold memories and are important to me. If anyone else saw them it would just look like a random mess.
24. I get really attached to people and things, so it is extremely hard for me to move on and let things go.
25. My freshman year, my neighbor Abby, who was a few months younger than me, passed away after going into cardiac arrest. Two weeks earlier, she had asked me to hang out and I told her I couldn’t because I was hanging out with Hailee. A few days before, she had commented on my facebook status and I never saw her response until after. To this day I still feel so much regret and hope she knows that I wasn’t ignoring her and that she really did mean a ton to everyone.
26. It’s so unreal to me that high school students die. Car accidents, suicide, other freak accidents. It just is so hard for me to process that you never know if the last thing you say to someone, is actually the last.
27. On a happier note, Christmas lights are one of my favorite things in the entire world, even when it isn’t Christmas time.
28. I get jealous way too easily, even more so when it comes to friends.
29. I work at a cupcake shop and actually enjoy my job, I just wish I could paint my nails still.
30. My music taste varies a lot and I sometimes just act like I like music because that’s what everyone else likes but in reality I would listen to old music constantly if it weren’t frowned upon.
31. I have an unhealthy addiction to sweet tea.
32. The color red makes me uncomfortable.
33. I cry when people grab my wrists or arms below my elbow and theres absolutely no explanation to this fear, I just get extremely stressed out every time someone does it.
34. I really enjoy painting, even though I’m no good at it.
35. Spaghetti is my least favorite food in the entire world. Steak is a close second.
36. I say I hate Missouri but if you look hard enough, there are truly some beautiful places here, even in Springfield.
37. I get extremely sassy and sometimes come across a lot meaner than I intend to. I also am extremely sarcastic and don’t know how to act in serious situations.
38. Reading is one of my favorite things to do, but I have to be in a certain mood to do so.
39. I begged for a cat for three years and I finally got one. I quickly realized why my parents were so against the idea. My cat became an outdoor cat and now we have five because…KITTENS. Joy.
40. For a while, I refused to eat and I ended up in the hospital, struggling to understand why they were telling me it was all in my head.
41. I don’t like babies. Or kids.
42. I guess I don’t like the idea of having my own kids really, because if I’m only around kids for a short time, I enjoy them.
43. I never want to get married.
44. I’m obsessed with wedding dresses, wedding shows, and wedding decorations though. I just never want to be married.
45. I really want to travel the world, I don’t even care if theyre major places, I just want to see different things.
46. I saw the movie Contagion and it caused me to not leave my room/house for a solid week and a half because I was afraid of getting a disease and dying.
47. I used to be a total germ freak and now I don’t really care. Like if you’re drinking sweet tea or starbucks and I want some, I’ll drink after you.
48. I can’t sleep if I’m too hot, and I can’t sleep if I’m too cold.
49. I struggle to sleep anyway, honestly.
50. I have nightmares practically every night, and it’s more than one a night. So on average I get about 4 hours of sleep
51. I get in moods of either wanting to be super productive and I want to clean my entire house, rearrange my room, change the world…or I never want to get out of bed and face responsibilities.
52. I’ve never broken a bone or gotten stitches.
53. I have an extremely low pain tolerance. (Could be a problem when getting tattoos.)
54. I went two years without speaking to my grandmother.
55. This being said, I can easily hold a grudge.
56. My Aunt Debbie is one of my favorite people in the entire world and I tell her almost everything.
57. Megan Rosell is my best friend. We’ve only been friends since the beginning of sophomore year but she’s stuck by my side even when I’m ugly crying. She’s my partner in crime. Whenever we’re together we end up doing something stupid and I couldn’t ask for a better friend.
58. Hannah Juliet Bond has been one of the most influential people in my life. She is my best friend as well. She’s been here for me for a long time and I adore her. We can rant together and drive around just screaming country songs and be completely comfortable.
59. I’m really bad at trusting people.
60. I am also known for pushing people away.
61. Ed Sheeran is the love of my life.
62. I can go from overly happy to super annoyed to crying in a matter of seconds.
63. I love having the freedom of driving but honestly driving scares me so badly.
64. I have a woman crush on Emma Stone.
65. Once I got a perm after seeing Emma Stone in The Help.
66. I love fall because it’s the perfect weather and its so beautiful outside. I cannot stand winter because there’s the possibility of snow, which I hate. I’m also far too stubborn to wear a coat.
67. Sunsets are my favorite thing, especially when there’s a lot of pink and orange.
68. Sometimes I just randomly feel the need to cry.
69. Tristan and I don’t always get along but he’s honestly one of the most important people in my life. He’s the only person that knows absolutely everything about me, even things Han and Meg don’t know. He’s helped with so much more than he even knows.
70. Sometimes I focus far too much on the negative things in my life and forget to be grateful for all of the wonderful things in my life.
71. This school year I lost one of my bestfriends and with no explanation, reason, or fight. I can’t help but wonder what I did that was so wrong, but I’m slowly coming to the realization that I can’t do anything to fix it. Slowly coming to the realization that I don’t need or want to fix it either.
72. I always over think everything.
73. I’m in love with Colorado and have always wanted to go to school there. Always. Someday I will live there, even if I don’t go to college there.
74. I sound like a dying donkey when I laugh.
75. I feel like I don’t even know myself well enough to write this list.
76. I’m addicted to cracking my knuckles.
77. Nothing annoys me more than people replying with one word after I FREAKING POUR MY HEART OUT TO THEM.
78. I’m not afraid to confront people about things and that tends to cause problems.
79. I love the smell of coconut.
80. When I was little, my brother and I were fighting and refused to listen to my mom and stop. She was driving and she decided to pull over until we calmed down. The parking lot she pulled into was a travel agency and I saw the airplane and thought she was going to put me up for adoption and send me away in the airplane. I cried for a solid ten minutes. I’ve also never been on an airplane.
81. I never knew I was afraid of heights or open water until I went parasailing this summer and bawled the entire time.
82. I love going on little adventures.
83. I have a love hate relationship with scary things.
84. I’ve played the violin since I was in fifth grade and quitting orchestra was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.
85. I had braces two years but you can’t even tell now.
86. Sometimes my knees and legs randomly start hurting so badly that I could cry from moving.
87. I have headaches every single day, whether they’re really bad or just small, I have one.
88. I always say I’m going to start working out and eating right, but I always put it off and end up going to sonic or eating oreos.
89. I’ve gotten really great at faking a smile and acting like I’m totally fine when in reality I’m falling apart. It takes a lot for me to let someone know that I’m upset, so if I do, they know I really trust them and really need them.
90. Most of my friends are either older than me or younger than me. My mom continues to freak out about me having older friends.
91. I tend to be a hypocrite without meaning to be.
92. Some days I feel super pretty without make up and other days I feel like I need to cake make up on just so I don’t look like a man. Other days I just don’t really care how I look or what people think.
93. I’m 16 years old and have already found six gray hairs and that makes me cry.
94. I’m extremely ticklish but I’m not someone that thinks tickling is funny. It makes me so angry and I just want to punch people.
95. I act really aggressive and angry, but when people yell at me or say mean things, I go home and cry about it.
96. When I’m actually crying, I don’t girly cry, I’m full on sobbing and can’t form sentences or breathe. It’s really cute.
97. Grape juice is my favorite juice.
98. I used to be super religious and now I’m really struggling to figure out what I believe and how I feel.
99. This school year has stressed me out more than any year before, harder classes, more work, and the pressure of colleges.
100. I wish I could go back to being a kid, but at the same time, I really just want to grow up and figure life out.
101. My biggest goal is to make some kind of difference in the world but one of my biggest fears is not being capable of doing this.